Music therapy

I was just playing my guitar aimlessly on my bed. Yesterday, I got an additional red packet. It surprised me and at the same time, I was thinking of the mode of delivery. Anyway, perhaps I am too tired or paranoid; somehow I think it will just stay with me. You are with me, I know that. There are a lot of things that are being left unspoken. It is not a matter of being open but rather, it is to prevent any outburst of emotions. I realised I am really unusually emotional and I really need to change. I am perfectly fine and happy. Just some thoughts when I indulge myself in music during reflection.