Broken heart

When they told me to give up on You, I think I was hurt more than the day before. I realised how much I have grown with You. Does this mean that my love for You has become stronger than what I will have for someone else? But things that happened all these while really deflated my faith and trust so much that I do not think I am strong enough to hold on to this anymore. Disappointments, discontentment and hurts are all coming so strongly that I think they are the only ones I can fall back on. They are something tangible I feel secured now. It is no one's fault. I guess it is mine. I believe but something is blocking me. How can I resist them now when I have no security in others from the other side. If You are real, help me. I really do not want to go through this now when recent events pulled me away from You.