Lightning events

I really cannot help it this time round. First was sb, then is someone whom I had worked closely with. Now, it is someone whom I have respected. Who is next? I am afraid it might be me. Not because others leave but for some reasons. I fear rejection. I fear separation. Throughout this period of time, I have realised tears is the best way to clear negative emotions. What else can I do? I need some time to get over. Nevertheless, I will wish her all the best. Your power is made perfect in my weakness. Your Grace is sufficient enough. I trust the words and hopefully it works.