Thoughts before sleep

I was thinking just now. Who are You acutally? Where do You live in this world? What makes You so special? After much pondering, questions of such surface. How much time do I spend with You? There is 24 hours a day and how much am I giving it to You? Many blamed and sometimes hated You for things You have done (or perhaps have not done) but how many actually know why You did that. Do they really know You? I do not really know. They are claiming You as someone who is very important to them but at the same time, not doing enough for You. I do not see it this way at times. I just thought that whatever You have been doing is too much for me to accept. I am not giving You as much or even near to what You are constantly giving.