No one shall know

I knew happiness would not last. But I seriously did not expect it to be this worst. I can not get closer now as it will only make things worst. I seriously do not know what to do now. My heart feels so calm now. I feel so peaceful. I should have felt so hurtful that I will go around calling everyone. But I did not this time round. I once told You about the gift. Does that means that You really intend to let me have the gift and it is the time now? Well, I will just let You decide. I seriously do not know how many would understand this abstract blog that some claims but if You really do not meant for me to possess that gift in the plan, please allow a person to stop me by midnight the next day. I do not think it is something of impulse but rather it is a prayer that was in my mind and it happens exactly what I had prophesied(or whatever it is) to You. I shall let You decide if I shall pray for it tomorrow night.