Ups and downs

Was really grateful that I had a nice dream earlier on. Really. I do not know if You know how much it means to me. I used to indulge myself in a world of dreams but not anymore. No doubts dreams are nice, the feeling I woke up with is excruciating. I would rather not sleep at all. Ups and downs through this journey. The dream I first had when I was with You came true. How true it is now. Do You understand what I am feeling now? I think should be. I tasted sweetness. It was sweet (obviously). I really do not wish to throw myself into a self-pity state. I do not and will not reach that stage. I will finish the journey with a smile though I tear much more now. Trust me. And I really pray the day I empty my tears in my eyes is the day I see salvation again. I do not wish to admit but have to shout this to You; I am seriously not oki and struggling. But rest assured. I want and will get past this. All feelings shall be forgo and all only to You. Thanks! Somehow or rather, I just got a feeling everything is going to end on Sunday. It is You I live for.