Promise me oki?

Personally, I appreciate negative things in life although it may affect me greatly. Who would appreciate light when there is no darkness. Who would appreciate happiness when there is no sadness. Who would appreciate reunion when there is no separation. I guess this is a process for us to go through. Like the saying goes; no pain no gain. Though I might be struggling within me, I am still glad that You never leave me. Thou who believes in me shall not be in darkness. I remembered very clearly that is what You told me. I really encourage all friends of Yours to thank You when in happiness because You provided them with it. In times of sadness, still thank You because while we are going through a learning process to gain fruits, You will still be there with us to suffer with us, listen to us and most importantly, love us. Yes, I am tired of all burdens and every single plan for me. But I am living in it with joy. I guess fruit is the motivating factor at the end of the day. If not, I would have given up all this long ago. Unconditioned love, giving selflessly, doing something for mankind. Some says but never do. Some says but do for their own interests. But how many can actually reach that level of really practising it like You in daily life? How many are actually guilty of that? I for one is a sinner of that. I know I am still not like You. I know my internal conflict is nothing because You are always reassuring me when I need You. That is why I choose to love. Though it seems like I am being crucified now, I guess it has to be a process I need to go through with You. I know times are really difficult for us now but I really hope we can make it through together. Promise me oki? I know the plan is not easy but I always believe in that whatever I am doing now is for a better tomorrow. And I really pray for a beautiful rainbow after this stormy period. And I also appreciate you for advising me on time management while carrying out the plan. Will really reflect on it greatly. Love you lots.